This morning I couldn't find my tweezers. So I resorted to plucking my eyebrows with needlenose pliers.

Where is the fine line behind being forewarned, and picking up a second hand offense?

Tonight I attended a service where the individual speaking was someone who has seriously hurt someone I love, a long time ago, before I knew either of them. It's hard to listen to him talk. It's hard not to argue in my head with every word he says.

Other than that, I had the opportunity to meet up with a very good friend, and will be hanging out with her tomorrow. It's funny, how each friend is irreplaceable by the others, so that no matter how surrounded I am by people I love, I will always be missing Rachel. For a little while at least, I'm that much closer to her, so I'll soak that up.

That reminds me that I need to get in touch with Chimwemwe. I miss her too. The feeling of missing people has changed for me. I used to feel incapacitated at the thought of individuals such as Chimwemwe. Now they are happy memories, to which I momentarily wish to return. The current arrangement is much better.

It occurre to me tonight, in a sanctuary with about a million teenagers and loud LOUD LOUD music, that I am getting old. I wished for my earplugs. It felt like my brain was being corroded away. I'd much rather worship God in solitude. I've become one of THOSE people.

And now it's WAAAAY past my 9 o'clock bedtime...... Oh Lord, bless my youth.

The internet is a beautiful thing. If I have a question about anything under the sun, I can find out the answer, or at least a balanced variety of theories, in relatively little time. Blogging is a cool thing, because it gives everybody a chance to voice their opinion. The problem is, that voicing those opinions seems to make them think their opinions are valid. (hahahaha it was a JOKE people)

I've been reading a lot lately on the whole America/Bush/Kerry/Election/Abortion/War in Iraq fiasco and I have to say that it never ceases to amaze me how wound up people get on the subject...... although now that I think about it, I seem to remember getting pretty wound up myself. I guess I just began to realize that it's all just piss in the wind.... oops I mean ash.

Sure, everyone's gonna have an opinion, and since no-one will ever know the complete truth behind all of these issues, I guess every point of view is game. But I get a little testy when people attack someone's christianity based on something like politics. No, I don't like Bush, but yes, I AM a Christian. Can't reconcile the two? Maybe you're taking your politics a little too seriously.

Anybody can claim to be a Christian when votes are on the line. That doesn't necessarily mean they're gonna be good at running a country. I'm a Christian, that doesn't mean I'm better at it than Paul Martin..... well actually I probably would be, but that's beside the point. The point is, there's lots of incompetent Christians out there, and there's lots of morally upright, sincere non-christians.

Someone's gotta be the president, I suppose, and now George Bush is. It is what it is. Let's pray he makes good choices now that he's around for a while.

I guess my real issue is with the mixing of spirituality and politics. I'm not sure it's always appropriate. Personally, I can't oppose abortion and support war in one breath, both in the name of God. In the name of God, I oppose both, but in the name of the greater good for my country, who do I vote for? No matter who I vote for, that person will support something I oppose. So I thank God that I had no vote in that election. Had I the option, I wouldn't have voted, and then some Christian somewhere would be telling me what a hellbound backslider I am for not voting.

How can anybody look at another person and make the call: Christian or Non-Christian? That couple in the restaurant's drinking beer..... Non Christian. That human in the front row of church.... Christian. I guess my big paradigm shift came when I noticed that the people drinking beer in the restaurant were better examples of Christ's love than the insincere human proclaiming the name of Jesus while behaving like a hypocrite. What is a "Christian" anyways? What do Christians act like? Who do they vote for? Whose job is it to decide whether I'm a Christian or not?

Some of these questions are easier to discern than others but as far as I'm concerned it just doesn't matter. Whether you're a christian or not is not my call, even if you DID vote for Kerry. Or Bush. Even if you smoke cigarettes...... It's still not for me to say.

It is up to me to love everybody as myself and pray for my leaders, and I do a substandard job of it. That has nothing to do with political elections. So everybody just chill out and leave me alone.

I'm hungry. make me some food. THEN leave me alone.

It's taken me a long time to watch "Ella Enchanted" since I was under the impression that it was some stupid ditzy retard fairy drivel, and I wouldn't have seen it had my roommate not rented it, whereupon I discovered that it's quite a delightful little flick. I liked it quite a bit. Also, since I haven't seen the Princess Diaries, which I also judged as retarded drivel, this was my first introduction to Anne Hathaway, who I must say is quite a likeable individual.

I've been doing a little bit of new training with Abu. Today I held up two of her favorite toys, and asked her to show me the chicken. She picked up the chicken in her mouth. I did it again, this time asking her to show me Rolf. She placed one paw firmly on Rolf.

This seems elementary, but it's actually a big deal.

Well I think my bedding must be dry by now so I'm going to go to bed. Nighty night.