Saturday, January 08, 2005

It's saturday morning, and all I see is the mess that needs to be cleaned up by the time my roomie comes home.... sometime tomorrow. Thank God, much more time alone like this and.... well.... I don't know. I keep watching the same movies over and over again, since the online rentals offered by my cable company are a rather poor selection.

Now that I'm earning enough money to buy both groceries AND entertainment aids, I've decided to atone for my past piracy by compiling a collection of Ani Difranco CD's. I'm sure I've burnt every song there is, and now I'm going to pay for them. I've started with what I think is a great album to start with "So much Shouting, So much Laughter" which is actually a two disc item and arrived on my doorstep just yesterday from amazon, to my sheer delight. It covers a wonderful variety of both old and new songs (though new is extremely subjective, seeing as how the album is two years old). All the songs are live, and performed by a six piece band which surpasses just about anything I've heard as far as arrangement and synergy are concerned. It has engaging arrangements of all my favorite songs. Of course, I had it all burned before I lost many of my cd's, but now I can listen guilt free. Ani has a new cd coming out on the 25th, and I can't wait.

I just read the fine print on the cd cover "unauthorized duplication, while sometimes necessary, is never as good as the real thing" which made me laugh out loud. It's so true.

I lost my guitar tuner, which makes it impossible for me to practice, which is infuriating. I think it's part of the reason that I've been finding my time alone so unendurable..... I'm finding that playing (however badly) is a wonderful outlet for those nameless emotions that I can't seem to write about lately. I want so badly to write lately, but the pen is not nearly so willing as the spirit. Now that I've been paid, I will go out and buy another tuner, whereupon the old one will magically reappear. Whatever it takes....

In other news, I think that I'm experiencing what is known as a "crush" and if this has ever happened to me before, it was entirely forgettable. I find it rather aggravating but I'll just take comfort in the knowledge that yes, I am still straight, and then focus on something else.....

As I try to re-awaken my love for writing, I've been researching some creative writing exercises. I came across one that I found interesting "keep a journal of a fictional character" so I started thinking it might be fun to do a blog in that direction. Kind of create an altar ego and explore the world through someone else's eyes. Is that something you guys would read? I don't really know if it would be readable, but I'm interested in trying. As I was reading different sites about finding creativity, I noticed a lot of people talking about "creating your own reality" and forming your own experience. It reminded me of when I was young, and I so seldom stepped into reality.... I was always lost in some daydream, and in my mind people were pleasantly surprising and insightful and courageous, and life was exciting and full of promise. It feels like all these years of adult survival have stripped my ability to see the beauty in day to day life.

As though I've been robbed of a precious gift.

Rafiki was talking to me about the biblical "thief" who was made to pay back ten-fold everything that he had stolen. That resonates with me. From the moment we are born, we are bombarded by the one who comes only to steal kill and destroy, and I would like this to be a year when I stand up and demand retribution.... the full tenfold. Already it's beginning. Last night I played a $500 djembe at house church which my church bought, and it felt like freedom.

Well, I've got a busy afternoon ahead of me, so I must skidaddle. Go buy "So much Shouting, So much Laughter" and you will be pleased with what you hear, regardless of your musical tastes.

Fare thee well.

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