I feel lately the way the Dooders looks when her ears are back. An old, familiar, tense sort of irritability.

The events of the last couple days have left me introspective and annoyed.

I should be asleep but instead I'm cooking rice. My tummy hurts.

I'm nervous. For the first time in a long time I'm nervous.... the future seems foreboding. I don't want much but I fear that the little I desire will be denied. I'm nervous about my family. I just want them to be okay.

I hope I sleep tonight.